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[Dec. 28th, 2009|12:22 am] |
 Do you recall the moment when you asked me where would I see myself in twenty years' time? My mental answer was actually "being your best friend". |
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| keep your love lockdown. |
[Dec. 27th, 2009|02:56 pm] |
Maybe I spoke too soon. I DID try giving K time, and I guess he gave me time too. But now, I think the time we willingly gave unwillingly took away feelings. He pretends as if nothing happened between us before, and I talk to him like there's nothing special anymore. I'm appalled at myself, really. I thought ending the 'dating' period with no clean break wouldn't happen to me anymore. Thank God for friends.
It's only the 27th of the last month in the year, but I'm on my way to making sure that I stick to my resolutions. I'm going to quit smoking. I've only been at it for a year, so I don't see why I can't do it, right? The past week, I haven't had the dying urge to smoke as badly coz I was sick. I'm not going to buy a pack tomorrow. I'm quite convinced that I won't tomorrow. But wish me luck for the rest of the week. *fingers crossed*
I'm going to visit Kino or Borders more often. I am going to find my Ancient Egyptian history fiction to feed my love for it. If I don't spend on ciggs, I can definitely buy more books. Or buy more clothes. But my other resolution is to save my money. Lol.
I need to start cycling randomly again. Probably once every week during the weekend. I can't even walk to the TEP room without being breathless since I started smoking. Maybe get people who actually want to play amateur volleyball with me at the beach just to break into a sweat.
Oh yes, on a very random note. I will smile at my eyecandies in school just coz it's gonna be my last year in NYP. Just for the fun of it.
Someone left for Dubai/Abu Dhabi. We have a bookstore 'date' when he comes back. For now, I need to get ready for SI Grand Finale. I hope Charice sings Halo, she's my ultimate reason for going.
Heretic,
Nissa. |
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[Dec. 27th, 2009|02:35 am] |
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It's ridiculously hilarious that your best friend's attempting to dig something out of me to see if the both of us have something scandalous going on. Well, if this occurred approximately seven months ago, I would gladly give him the benefit of the doubt. But right now, hmmmmm, NO EFF WAY PLEASE.
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| Don't you love in vain. |
[Dec. 26th, 2009|06:02 pm] |
A hundred and eighty(:
Days can only get better.
I have a tad over a month left of internship, and then we're done.
Honestly, those months of internship? I saw myself learn and grow.
And all those friends I made, those smiles, are priceless.
Alhamdulillah.
“We can never judge the lives of others, because each person knows only their own pain and renunciation. It’s one thing to feel that you are on the right path, but it’s another to think that yours is the only path.” |
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| No, it doesn't take two dammit. |
[Dec. 26th, 2009|12:38 am] |
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You know how it feels to be all pumped up with excitement for something but it all diminishes because it isn't mutual? Well, I can safely say that you have quite a talent for that.
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| Psalm 6 |
[Dec. 22nd, 2009|11:13 pm] |
1-2 Please, God, no more yelling, no more trips to the woodshed.
Treat me nice for a change;
I'm so starved for affection.
2-3 Can't you see I'm black-and-blue,
beat up badly in bones and soul?
God, how long will it take
for you to let up?
4-5 Break in, God, and break up this fight;
if you love me at all, get me out of here.
I'm no good to you dead, am I?
I can't sing in your choir if I'm buried in some tomb!
6-7 I'm tired of all this—so tired. My bed
has been floating forty days and nights
On the flood of my tears.
My mattress is soaked, soggy with tears.
The sockets of my eyes are black holes;
nearly blind, I squint and grope.
8-9 Get out of here, you Devil's crew:
at last God has heard my sobs.
My requests have all been granted,
my prayers are answered.
10 Cowards, my enemies disappear.
Disgraced, they turn tail and run. (Psalm 6, The Message) |
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| Very first, success. |
[Dec. 22nd, 2009|02:42 pm] |
Sweat and tears.
The best thing I can take home out of the two wraps that just passed are just the amount of awesome new friends I made throughout the journey who stood strong with me. Who keep telling me I've been doing a good job and encouraged me to stay strong. Who listens to all my jokes and laugh along even at the most stressful hours.
I've learnt so much. |
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| And another one. |
[Dec. 22nd, 2009|11:58 am] |
Lynalove sent this picture yesterday via email and said it suits me.
I read it at 1.30am and it made me smile.
And late night supper with love was like the icing on a gorgeous cake.
I can't wait for Thursday and Friday :DD |
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[Dec. 20th, 2009|11:01 pm] |
 It'll be swell if I could have that amount of hair. |
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| sand |
[Dec. 20th, 2009|10:29 pm] |
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Taking a walk through that stretch of sand, the salty breeze is a god-send.
The cold of the loneliness however... |
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[Dec. 20th, 2009|10:05 pm] |
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As much I get all hermit-like when it comes to us, it doesn't equate to how much I feel about you nor the miles I would go for you. Though I might not that all so loving or girlfriend material, I'd like you to know that you're irreplaceably precious to me. I'm just glad that somehow you always figured me out and you understood the ways I loved you.
But nothing is permanent in life isn't it? |
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| rant rant rant. |
[Dec. 20th, 2009|08:50 pm] |
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I just typed about three or four paragraphs worth of updates but I realise nothing matters if this blog seems dead. I might consider just ending this. |
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| Let there be love. |
[Dec. 16th, 2009|09:41 am] |
My very first. And last. Everyday.
I can't wait for the weekends. |
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